such a BIG fool

I'am starting to let my heart die

without him knowing (He won't care after all)

making him believe

I'm just one of those who wish him well (Isn't that the sign?)

With every touch of our platonic hands

I hide my most intimate desire

to have him in my arms (yes. fooling myself he's mine)

I let my love suffer in vain

without even fighting for the chance

for it to be a reality (Coz in reality he loves someone else-OUCH!)

I let it be gone with time (I can't wait)

even wished to be lost

and nowhere to be found

Be blinded by my so called "friendship",

we could only share (the only way I could be a part of his life I guess)

I have killed my heart to taste a little happiness,

that once in a while he could be mine.

"Illusion of having him, without him knowing" ^A^ T_T