Art of Letting Go... T_T

Thanks for the rain tonight

It seems like it was my heart

that is crying so hard

I wanted to burst out and shout your name

with the words "I LOVE YOU" at the end

Is this the feeling to be in love?

The feeling that now how I wished didn't came

I asked myself if I have loved someone finally

without an idea

that I will somehow wished it will soon fade naturally

Oh how hard it was for me to let go

to this feeling I have

specially now that I know

It is not me he can't live without T_T

such a BIG fool

I'am starting to let my heart die

without him knowing (He won't care after all)

making him believe

I'm just one of those who wish him well (Isn't that the sign?)

With every touch of our platonic hands

I hide my most intimate desire

to have him in my arms (yes. fooling myself he's mine)

I let my love suffer in vain

without even fighting for the chance

for it to be a reality (Coz in reality he loves someone else-OUCH!)

I let it be gone with time (I can't wait)

even wished to be lost

and nowhere to be found

Be blinded by my so called "friendship",

we could only share (the only way I could be a part of his life I guess)

I have killed my heart to taste a little happiness,

that once in a while he could be mine.

"Illusion of having him, without him knowing" ^A^ T_T

Story Behind... ^A^

+ I know I shouldn't feel this way,
but I'll express it anyway.
Just to ease the pain
the last time it rain.

+ He said glad to meet bee.
But I asked what race is he?
He is a newbie,
and I call him dee.

+ We were both glad we asked each other,
or else we might not know each other.
Maybe what we tried was meant to be,
because what we did is not how it used to be.

+ Each one has a story to tell,
that's how we both get well.
But there are things I wished I didn't tell,
that would make everything go well.

+ We had a chat one day,
a good chat by the way.
But I was surprised he didn't even said bye,
which made my eyebrows get high
and ended it with a sigh.

+ It happened five days ago,
the feelings could actually go.
This is nothing to me now,
if he happens to know this by now.

Better Left Unsaid...^O^

+ It is raining again
and I'm holding my pen
writing another poem
to get things over

+It is almost a week
that we never spoken to each other
after the "date" we had together

+I tried not to think of him
and continue what I'am doing
until yesterday he popped out
that really means a lot

+We said our Hi & Hellos
how are you & How do you do...
Oh How I love to hear from ddiee...
that he actually misses Bee...
But that was too much of me to ask for
now, I'm asking what was that for?

+ "Missing thingy"-never mind
Because a question runs into mind
I typed it and was ready to send
but half of me holds back, don't do it!
She said...

+ and so i stopped
and waited for his chat.
He asked what's with me later
without knowing it I pressed enter
so what he got is a question from bee
and at that time I just wished I'll turned into a BEE.

+My impulsiveness really brings me
into trouble
But i chose to calm down, for it
not to be doubled
He answered back innocently
stupid me to comment back
and make it big
that lead him to be intrigue

+ it was my fault I admit
I ruined my day I should say
Now, I asked myself, is it better if we didn't meet?
because i'am having a hard time to commit
to my heart's rules' I need to beat

+I was not proud of what I did
and to that, don't risk to bid
coz' just a thought that he will get rid
would make bee really bleed

+Many times I thought to stop
Coz this would not get me into top
I actually just needed a tap
and maybe someone who could offer his lap

+Wherever this will lead us/me to
Lord please guide me to be true
especially when I'm feeling blue,
for me not to send...
words that is
MUCH BETTER LEFT UNSAID...

Here's the LIGHT...^O^

+He already knew the story behind
and forgiveness he wants to find
I said he doesn't need to mind
but still he can't get it out of his mind

+My friend dee said "sorry"
I answered "my friend don't worry"
I realized maybe you're in a hurry...

*note: and besides, you don't need to say bye to me when you leave *_*

+You don't need to feel sorry...
It was actually I, who worry...
It's just that, what you did left me a query...

+ Bee wants to assure Dee that she's okay
but dee, still wants to pay...
Coz, maybe he wants me to say...
from my lips, I forgive him anyway...

+I really don't want to say it ("I forgive You")
not because i don't feel it...
but dee really insist...
that bee can't resist...

+To please both of us...
I said just wait for another poem
In here I will give him a sight...
for him to find the light...*_*

INCOMPLETE...^A^

+I can live without you, yes I do!
I can even go anywhere my feet leads me to
I can smile even if I can't see you
I can succeed and at the same time believe

+ I can dance all night long
I can sing a song
I can read a book and make my own
I can write a poem and read it along

+ My heart can beat without you, that's for sure...
My life will continue, and start a new...
My Family and Friends will stay; I don't mind you anyway...
My passion will soar high...so high it will make you sigh

ABOVE ALL THE THINGS I've SAID...
A part of me says...
still, I'am...
INCOMPLETE...